{She Reads Truth} A Request for A Forgiving Heart Prayer

So today I need help with forgiveness Lord.

Although I’ve gotten better with forgiving others, due to the Lord working on me, I’m struggling to forgive others. A certain person has made me so angry and frustrated with their behavior over the weekend. And I’m honestly not trying to “be right.” I just resented the way I was spoken to and treated. It really hurt me. Its challenging to work so hard on a relationship and do what the other person asks, only to have those behaviors become not good enough too. So, I’m feeling very angry and frustrated. And I am having a difficult time moving through it. I’m still processing all that happened.

But I know I need to forgive. I know that I can be stubborn at times. I am usually very slow to anger but also slow to forgive. I don’t have the words in my vocabulary to piece together an apology right now.  I feel stuck today. I’m calling on the Lord to really help me.

I was doing the She Reads Truth devotional today, which was designed to help us figure out the toxic people in our lives. And I’m still working on figuring out those. I have distanced myself from some toxic people in my life but I’m not sure {it’s incredibly doubtful} that I’ve forgiven them. I am still holding resentments.

We had to read 2 Timothy 2:14-26. And one verse stuck out to me.

“Have nothing to do with foolish, ignorant controversies; you know that they breed quarrels. And the Lord’s servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness.” 2 Timothy 2:23-25 ESV

These words just stood out in bold on the page. I know I didn’t correct with gentleness. I was too hurt to do so. And I definitely didn’t call on God before I talked about my feelings and the situation. And I should have… I need to…Maybe if I call on God sooner, then I wouldn’t get so hurt in these heated discussions, and I would be able to forgive a lot quicker.

My prayer today is for God to work on my heart. God, please help me to forgive. Please soften my heart and comfort my soul.  Please give me the love, strength, courage, and forgiveness to release this tie on my heart and soul. Please continue to build my forgiving abilities. Thank you Lord for listening and always loving me.

wishing you a week of love and forgiveness,

Hope

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4 thoughts on “{She Reads Truth} A Request for A Forgiving Heart Prayer

  1. Christie says:

    Thank you for sharing your heart with us and for being so transparent. The thing I’ve realized about forgiveness is that it frees YOU more than anything. So many times the other person doesn’t even realize they need forgiving, but we hold onto that resentment which doesn’t allow us to grow in Christ or relationships. It’s so,so hard though.

    Praying for you today as you seek to genuinely forgive…in Christ.

    Thanks for linking up with Tuesday’s Prayers this week!

    Christie
    http://www.satisfactionthroughchrist.com

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    • hopejoypeace says:

      Hi Christie,
      Thank you for stopping by my blog and for leaving your kind and warm words. They really meant a lot.

      You are so right about the other person probably not thinking they need forgiveness. I know that I need to forgive them to be right with God … It’s the right thing to do. And it will definitely free me from the resentment that I know I harbor somewhere.

      Thank you for your prayers. I know that God is working on my heart.

      Blessings!

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  2. Kim Teamer says:

    It takes strength and courage to express and expose hard truths about ourselves. Thank you for being so real. That real ness before the LORD brings with it greater freedom. Through your sharing and teaching, many will be blessed.

    May I encourage you to check out http://tsuzanneeller.com/. Suzie (Suzanne Eller) has a new book, The Unburdened Heart, that deals with the subject of forgiveness. She will be leading an online study about it. I think you may find it helpful. Although the book is scheduled for release on March 1, she does presently have an active link for the intro as well as chapter one.

    God bless. Praying for you.

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    • hopejoypeace says:

      Hi Kim,
      Thanks for stopping by and for your kind comments.

      I will definitely check out the book and web site that you suggested. I recently bought “31 Days of Forgiveness: Through the Eyes of Grace” by Tracie Stier-Johnson. I feel like the resources are part of the answer to my prayers.

      Peace and grace!

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